The distinction of extinction

When minds compete with themselves it tends to end up messy. It tends to occur near four in the morning, alone, chain-smoking....For smokers at least....For Nyssas at least.

I think the trouble is curiosity. An intense necessity to understand life around me. To understand the unexplainable. I tend to challenge the inevitable.

My findings have been:

1. People will be selfish. They will take what they want, even if it'll shatter someones life. They will act out guilt only when confronted. They will not be tortured every day from what they've done, so why let the torment linger? (note: easier said than done)

2. Someone who nearly dies, does not indeed die. They're still alive. Feeling life drain out of a person may be one of the most horrific experiences to hold in your arms, but life came out of it. So remember that.

3. People don't always get what they deserve. And it sucks.

4. If you find yourself running away from something, finding all the reasons not to, or pertaining fear, it tends to mean what your running from can be something good, and is waiting there for you to fuck it up by acting on that fear. I'm exceptionally good at this one. Longest sentence ever. Trying to change.

5. Sometimes all you need is music, a 40 and a kitten.

6. It's easy to disappear and not even notice.

7. You know fairly sane people, and you know truly fucked up people. The fucked up ones often give better insight.

8. Normal doesn't exist. It shouldn't be a word.

9. I like making lists.

10. We're all just doing the best we can. As long as you keep trying....your ok by me.

Now I'm aware that putting song lyrics on blogs has had this mask of teenage angst put over it...buuuut I don't think it is so I'm gonna do it. Cause sometimes other people can explain things I think in words better than I can. Which is kind of alarming, but I've still got my paintings and drawings and stuff so I can still get out what I'm thinking on my own....ish.


Karma Police
I've given all I can
It's not enough
I've given all I can
But we're still on the payroll
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For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
Phew, for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
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We would shout and swim about
The coral that lies beneath the waves
(Lies beneath the ocean waves)
Oh what joy for every girl and boy
Knowing they're happy and they're safe
(Happy and they're safe)

But In This Ever Changing World In Which We Live In
Makes You Give In And Cry
Say Live And Let Die
Live And Let Die
Live And Let Die
Live And Let Die

Though It Takes A Lot Of Power
To Make A Big Tree Grow.
It Doesn't Need A Pot Of Knowledge.
For A Seed Knows What A Seed Must Know.

....some are just more sentimental than anything.